Fire Ice and the Contradiction of OCD

Fire Ice is the colloquial term for methane hydrate. This is when ice crystals lock within them methane gas. This is formed by a combination of low temperature and high pressure. Thus, by lowering pressure or raising the temperature, a lot of methane is consequently released. This massive amount of methane is a potential source of power. Luckily, Fire Ice is very plentiful, though it can be hard to get.

So, the contradiction of OCD.

A quick reminded: OCD is Obsessive Compulsive Disorder which is situated under the umbrella term Affective Mood Disorder. This disorder is when something causes a great shift in the emotions, typically heightened levels of anxiety, and well-being of the individual sufferer. With an OCD sufferer, this thing that causes this shift is obsessed about constantly, and the sufferer is compelled to fix it. Whether this is by solving the issue or utilising some coping mechanism, they are still compelled to solve it. The most-cited example of OCD is that of cleanliness: an individual will obsess about the hygiene of their home, and they compulsively feel the need to get it clean.

            My OCD is all about control. I need control over my environment and myself. Among various other bits and pieces, everything must be tidy, organised and clean, which means it is very easy for me to reduce my anxieties. I find it quite amusing that my OCD is about control. I am obsessed with control, and I am compelled to be in control, yet I have very limited control over my obsessions or my compulsions. It’s just one big contradiction.

So, the logic is that I have a higher level of control if I can successfully resist the compulsions. I have more control if I resist the compulsion. I do little things. Notices on my pin board are left at wonky angles; carpets and chairs don’t align with the lines and angles of the room. The longer one can go without having to do something about it, the better. I have to resist my obsessions/compulsions to appease my obsessions/compulsions: contradiction.